The Closer I Get to You

I have started to take what my Pastor says in church to heart and try to apply it to my everyday life.  I am not the most religious person or anything, but I do consider myself to be relatively spiritual.  One topic of discussion that Pastor has presented in church in the last couple weeks has stood out to me and is very visible in my life right now.  Allow me to share my thoughts with you.

The discussion dealt with seasons in life and how they affect you much like they affect the secular world.  During the summer season everything is hot.  It is a time to relax and enjoy yourself, be carefree and rest.  The people you meet during this time are at their best and very passionate about forming bonds.  Moving into fall season, you prepare to enter a time of harvest and saving.  You start to wind down from the highs of summer as you prepare yourself for the cold that potentially lies ahead.  Winter is a season where everything dies.  It is the complete opposite of summer.  It can be cold and lonely at times and you may often struggle to find any shred of warmth in your soul.  What comes after winter is spring.  The time of renewal.  The losses of winter start to become obsolete as the beauty of spring makes things better than they were before and renew your spirit.

I am definitely in my winter season right now.  I am in heavy financial debt that appears impossible to get out of, I have lost the love of my life (not to the after life but to the pressures of society), I have lost other close friends, and ultimately I am continuously losing my sanity.  What is overlooked about winter; however, is its beauty.  Like the beauty of nature after a heavy snowfall, white and pure, someone sees your struggles and finds beautiful admiration in your ability to survive.  It is when you lose everything and everything around you dies that you ultimately become closer to GOD because you have no one else to turn to.  It is during the winter season that you truly find YOURSELF.  

I am now in a position to say that I am thankful to be going through my winter season.  I am thankful that I have re-discovered a strong relationship with GOD and those around me who I still consider to be friends.  Without this winter season, I wouldn't be able to look forward to spring and the new blessings that lie ahead of me.